And so it goes on...
it's 3, can't sleep, thinking about my future,i'm goin to take the 1st
step to realizing my dreams, so much thoughts running through, i've
always had ridiculous dream since high school to build a multi-billion
dollar empire with my frens,so i can buy all the big boy's toy like
fast cars, big cars, a Boeing..lol, a house off the coast of italy,an
accousticly tuned and designed music room, and the list goes on..but
as grew older...i realize how ridiculous and impossible my dreams
were, and also some ppl told me money is evil,i also learn money isnt
everyting,i might have all the stuff and still not be happy. i began
to ponder, what shall i do with my life? tot of being an average joe,
work -> get married->have kids->DIE! lol, but than i swore las time i
wun be like tat and its boring, tot of being an aide worker or
activist or someting like tat, the list goes on...but today i have
come to a conclusion, i will pursue my original dream, its impossible,
i most probaly will not achieve it, i will not be a billionaire, but
if i did try hard, i'll at least be a millionaire, i wun afford a
lambo or a ferrari but i'll be able to afford a BMW, money is evil?
yes and no, its a tool, it can be good , it can be bad...with money, i
can do good, i can support a worthy cause, i can do nice things to
ppl, i can have a company that provides good product or service at a
very reasonable price, thats doing good too. For example, look at Mel
Gibson, lets say his not rich, not famous, u tink he can afford to
make passion of christ? that would touch millions later on? George
soros is a rich bastard, but he spends most of his money fighting for
the cause he believes in, an open society, the thing is u can do good
with out power and money, but u can do more good with power and money,
so dun be shy, go make yerself rich =p Go follow your dreams and die a
satisfied man, and oh yea...next time u see me spending money like
nobody's bizness, remind me,,, "kawan, save money for business capital
lei.."

Im Still in Bloody KL..
After comin back from genting...the theme park dam sien wan..the thrill rides not thrilling enough... and line dam long somemore...
a real let down was the go kart ... DAM SLOW i tell u... my leg was always on the accelrator!!!! rarely on brakes..wat a let down..
now bck in KL amd bored again!!! hai KL DAM Sien wif out kaki,
only ting to do is shopping...shopping not really my cup of tea!
KL dam sien la wif out kaki.. u guys la all go bck Kch or somewhere else... hiong kan..got conspiracy isit!?ahahhaha
limpehvery sien!!!

blogging in a cyber now in KL on the top floor of low yat...
my 1st day at KL!? BORING! FUCKING BORING!!!
i'm supposedly at one of the happening area around in town,
BB area..but im still bored..cos there is noting to do here but shop shop shop shop....and im not really a shopping freak, im the type who likes go to one place... find it..grab it and go do some other intresting stuff... KL well..is a abit amusing..at giant i saw them selling matching flower bra and panties for 4.99 a pair! lol tats the price of a wantan mee here! and i saw Rm4 bucks mouse...dunno if they work..but i guess they will...tats it for now..im lazy to type

so much in my head, yet there is peace,
jus got bck from watchin alexander, he might be alexander the
great..but
also his alexander the GAY!
The movie made me think, what is the purpose of greatness if so many
died and suffered, you loose your friends, you kill your own friends,
in the
end for you to die and have your kingdom fall apart again? Is there
greatness in taking so many lifes? crushing many hopes?
where is the greatness in that? to me greatness is in simple
things,greatness is to give life, greatness is to give joy, not take
nor
deprieve,
I can easily get a knife and start killing, some crack ass terrorist
can
blow up a nuke and kill millions, but not give life or spread joy...it
takes selflessnes, it takes courage.True greatness is to give, not to
take.

Nick is a symphony of character, feelings, emotions and thoughts =)
©2004

I Hereby pronounce today DEC 2, 2004! ANXIOUS day! anxious bout my exam result and anxious about other stuff..i never felt so fucking anxious in my whole fucking life!!

What i wrote out of boredome...

/* ©2004 Nicholas Loh - does not compile..if u try..ur stupid*/

#include stdio.h
#include package.humansense.see
#include package.sex.*
#include package.emotions.*

function areUinLoveWifHer ( char[30] name);

char[30] main (char[30] name_of_who_u_love)

char[30] result="";

if(love=areUinLoveWifHer(name_of_who_u_love,,&result)){
if(shelovesu=true){
if(willbehappy=true){
if(compatible){love.action.court_her()};
};
};
};




return char;

};


function areUinLoveWifHer ( char[30] name, char* result) {
int inlove%=0;

if (see.name=emotions.happy) { inlove%++};

if(see.name=sex.high){if(sex.high.desireOnly){inlove%--}
else if(sex.high.islove){inlove%++};

if(inlove%>50) {return strcpy(*result,"mayb yer in love" , return true);

if(inlove%<50){return strcpy(*result,"u jus wanna fuck her" , return false);

if(inlove%>90){return strcpy(*result,"u should fucking marry her" return true);
}

Your Lexmark printer and scanner spying on u!!
http://www.engadget.com/common/jump.asp?win_cc=1523287196564953

WOhoooo!!! Exam over...hopefully i'd pass all my sub and grad!!
Than it will be a new chapter of my life! mayb it's time i start thinking wat i really want with my life..wat i want to make of myself!! time to ponder and ponder and live it and not waste life away, so god help me =p

Finding my self
over and over
in the cloud of confusion
trying to find who i am
but the answer is always
the same
it's me
it's always the me i am
after all it's not bout finding
who i am
but its always rediscovering again
and again who i was
what i am
what i alawys been
it's always bout goin bck to my own road
no matter who or what lead me astray
i'd find my way back to me

so to the some of u...
who might mean well (thanks) or mean ill (go screw yerself)
telling me what i should be
who i should become
shut the fuck up!
i dun give a dam!
what u say or wat u tink
you're not me
you've never been me
you don't know who i am
with the grace of god
i shall be my ultimate judge
to what i am
to who i will be

for those who has always been there
accepting me for being me
being there for me no matter in what times
your truly great friends that i cherish

My advice,
just be you
listen to your inner self
follow your inner zeal
be who you are
your beautiful =)
even if your wrong,
you'll die being yourself
not someone else!

©2004 Nicholas Loh

Today i learned of a hero i respect, one younger than i am, a 13 year old who died at 13, but did many wonders , much more than most of us can.He inspired millions with his poetry ,with the message of peace and love. He had greatness alot of us lack , to geniunely care for others even when his on life is on the line.Here are some of his inspiring work:

Every journey begins
With but a small step.
And every day is a chance
For a new, small step
In the right direction.
Just follow your Heartsong.

by Mattie Stepanek

and he wrote when he was just 11, I want people to know that in every life there are storms. But we must remember to play after every storm and to celebrate the gift of life as we have it, or else life becomes a task, rather than a gift. We must always listen to the song in our heart, and share that song with others.

to know more
read
http://myhero.com/myhero/hero.asp?hero=mattieStepanek
http://www.oprah.com/spiritself/insp/psp/ss_insp_psp_mattie.jhtml

my faith is at it's edge,
does it pay to be the good guy? does it pay to uphold moral values?
does it pay to do the right thing and not indulgede in temptations?
it doesnt seem to pay doin the right thing....tings jus go wrong
my faith is at play, so help me god

Another Wasted day..Doing wasted stuff
las nite i drank like mad again and of cos..spend like mad!
should have jus followed my instinct and went home.
i'd save money, not torment my liver, not waking up feeling like shit
and not the mention the guilt..wtf man

from http://yro.slashdot.org/article.pl?sid=04/10/05/1823254&tid=153

"The Malaysian blogosphere is currently in uproar as one of their most famous bloggers, a political observer named Jeff Ooi, has been threatened with action under the country's draconian ISA (Internal Security Act) law which allows a person to be detained without trial if he is thought to threaten "national security". The whole problem started with a comment made by a reader of the blog. The comment is alleged to have been insulting of Islam. A national newspaper (whose editor has frequently been a target of Ooi's blog) took up the story and accused the blogger of insulting Islam, while Ooi in his defence states he warned (and later deleted) the offending commenter when he was alerted to it. Malaysian bloggers meanwhile are outraged that a blogger should be held responsible for comments made by readers. In the case of Ooi's blog, which attracts thousands of hits per day, it is logistically impossible for Ooi to read and moderate every comment made. The whole saga can be followed in Jeff Ooi's Screenshots blog."


check out www.jeffooi.com for the whole detail!!

why is there a deep urge for me to escape!? to run away?
am i a coward? or am it to run away and rediscover myself?
to be the best of who i am?

Bored boring very bored, not tat i dun have work to do, i got tons of assign to do, jus tat their not exciting at all..its all so so so so boring!

DAM astro piss me off again! They censored anwar's CNN' interview! wtf !!! anyway for those of u who are intrested , an unofficial version of the transcipt is availaible here:
http://www.mggpillai.com/sections.php3?op=viewarticle&artid=7840

"BMW unveils world's fastest hydrogen car
'H2R' uses traditional combustion engine, not fuel cells"
http://msnbc.msn.com/id/6089614/

who wants a gmail? drop me a line

~Live Your Love~

by Max The Poet®





Live your love,

Feel what is real,

Seek your destiny,

With the ultimate zeal.

~

Live your love,

Find what completes you,

Be the best that you can be,

In everything you do.

~

Live your love,

Make your dreams come true,

You can do most anything,

That you want to do.

~

Believe in yourself,

Reach for a star,

Nurture, what it is,

That makes you who you are.

~

Live your love,

Reach out, touch others,

Find your purpose on this Earth,

We are all sisters and brothers.

~

When you dream, dream big,

You can make it if you try,

Fear not, failure,

Failure is a lie.

~

Take your gift and share it,

Share it freely with everyone,

The talent you possess,

Shines brighter than the sun.

~

Live your love,

Follow your heart,

Listen to your inner voice,

Like you have, from the start.

~

An awesome tune of might and power,

Is contained, therein,

Listen to the melody,

As each day begins.

~

Your gift is awesome,

It is sent from above,

Capture success and harness it,

Be bold and live your love.

Some of Life's fav question

Questions that my friend asked on her blog
and question that i always ask msyelf
and question that alot of people have pondered upon

1. What is Happiness?
2. What is Life?
3. What is Love?
4. How to measure if I've got a meaningful life?

i've been pondering into those questions for so long
sometime there is an aswer..sometimes there is so many answers, sometime there is no answers, im confused mysef =P
for the 4th question i find lyrics of 4him - measure of a man [lyrics on my blog or google for it], a good answer.
i tink mayb there is no ultimate answer to life, or mayb god is the answer, i don't know
mayb its life to search for this answers, as they always say...live for love, search for happiness?

lol..wat is love!? i've been asking myself too, i know the love of a mother/father for his/her child, love of god, but i still don't understand the love between a gal n a guy[i'll call it hetro love lol], if they so much so love each other? why are there divorce? why are they cheating? why is there hurt? or isit "love" is just a chemical reacation, a spark? or isit sexual? i tink the greatest love of all, after god's love, is the love a parent, love of a child, so much so that someone would endure 9 months of pain, sacrifice so much to bring a child up, protecting it,ever forgiving ,in the end not hoping anything in return, only that the child will lead a good life, its a phenomenal thing, suddenly "Love"(hetro love)is so much so celebrated in songs , movies. but rarely the love of a father for his child, a love of a mother for her unborn infant, a love of a soldier dying for his country, don't they deserve more celebration than those hetro love? of cos a guy will love u and buy u nice things, talk sweet to u, cos he wanan bang u! and of cos a gal would be nice to u and stuff, cos she wants romance and excitement, mayb your credit card..lol. I think the media has very much celebrated the wrong love and gave the wrong idea on love, its like LOve=SEX , Love=Romance , Love=passion.I'm not saying Love is not good, i just think the boy gal kinda love is overrated, exploited by industries, A love a hero for his country, a love of a parent for his children, a love of a friend, a love of god for his ppl, these are the true loves, love which sacrifice everything with out hoping for something in return, love with out motive, love without exploit, love that is so pure and clean, that is TRUE LOVE

4him - measure of a man

This world can analize and size you up and throw you on the scales
They can I.Q. you and run you through
Their rigorous details
They can do their best to rate you
And they'll place you on the charts
And then back it up with scientific smarts
But there's more to what you're worth
Than their human eyes can see
Oh, I say the measure of a man
Is not how tall you stand
How wealthy or intelligent you are
'Cause I've found out the measure of a man
God knows and understands
For He looks inside to the bottom of your heart
And what's in the heart defines
The measure of a man
Well, you can doubt your worth
And search for who you are
And where you stand
But God made you in His image
When He formed you in His hands
And He looks at you with mercy
And He sees you through His love
You're His child and that will always be enough
For there's more to what you're worth
Than you could ever comprehend
Oh I say the measure of a man
Is not how tall you stand
How wealthy or intelligent you are

'Cause I've found out the measure of a man
God knows and understands
For He looks inside
To the bottom of your heart
And what's in the heart defines
The measure of a man
You can spend your life persuing physical perfection
There is so much more
More than ever meets the eye
For God looks through the surface
And He defines your worth by what is on the inside
I say the measure of a man
Is not how tall you stand
How wealthy or intelligent you are
'Cause I've found out the measure of a man
God knows and understands
For He looks inside
To the bottom of your heart
And what's in the heart defines
Oh, I say the measure of
The measure of a man
Is not how tall you stand,
How wealthy or intelligent you are
Oh, I've found the measure of a man
God knows and understands it
For He looks to the bottom of your heart
And what's in the heart defines
Yeah, what's in the heart defines
Yeah, what's in the heart defines
The measure of a man
I know, I know

I'm going to name my kids Control, Alt, and Delete.
If they ever get to be a problem I'll just hit them all twice
Problem solved.

A worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question
asked was:"Would you please give your honest opinion about solutions to the
food shortage in the rest of the world?"
The survey was a huge failure...
In Africa they didn't know what "food" meant.
In Eastern Europe they didn't know what "honest" meant.
In Western Europe they didn't know what "shortage" meant.
In China they didn't know what "opinion" meant.
In the Middle East they didn't know what "solution" meant.
In South America they didn't know what "please" meant.
And in the USA they didn't know what "the rest of the world" meant

so much for merdeka...fights everywhere..innocent ppl get stabed..big fight at clubbing area..police who jus seem to stand there and not give a fuck....ungrateful uncivilised assholes...all those who died for us , for our nation mus be rolling in their graves now!

Question: What is the true definition of Globalisation?

Answer: Princess Diana's death.

Question: How?

Answer: An English princess with an Egyptian boyfriend crashes in a
French tunnel, driving a German car with a Dutch engine, driven by a
Belgian who was drunk on Scottish whisky, (check the bottle before you
change the spelling) followed closely by Italian Paparazzi, on Japanese
motorcycles; treated by an American doctor, using Brazilian medicines.
This is sent to you by an Malaysian, using Bill Gates' American
technology , and you're probably reading this on your computer, that
uses Taiwanese chips, and a Korean monitor, assembled by Bangladeshi
workers in a Singapore plant, transported by Indian lorry-drivers,
hijacked by Indonesians, unloaded by Maori wharfies, and trucked to you
by Vietnamese illegals.....

That, my friends, is Globalisation!!


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There once was a king who offered a prize to the artist who would
paint the best picture of Peace. Many artists tried. The king looked at
all the
pictures. But there were only two he really liked, and he had to
choose
between them.

One picture was of a calm lake. The lake was a perfect mirror for
peaceful
towering mountains all around it. Overhead was a blue sky with fluffy
white clouds. All who saw this picture thought that it was a perfect
picture
of peace.

The other picture had mountains, too. But these were rugged and bare.
Above was an angry sky, from which rain fell and in which lightning
played.
Down the side of the mountain tumbled a foaming waterfall. This did not
look
peaceful at all.

But when the king looked closely, he saw behind the waterfall a tiny
Bush growing in a crack in the rock. In the bush a mother bird had built
her
nest. There, in the midst of the rush of angry water, sat the mother
bird on her nest in perfect peace.

Which picture do you think won the prize? The king chose the second
picture. Do you know why?

"Because," explained the king, "Peace does not mean to be in a place
where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in
the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart. That is
the real
meaning of peace."

Astro subsribers take down yer pants, the second richest man in Malaysia , owner of maxis and astro is gonna screw u

as taken from http://www.jeffooi.com/archives/2004/08/astro_subscribe_1.php :

As new payTV operator MiTV is feverishly trying to launch its service
in December, Astro is conspiring to lock-in its current subscribers
like fish-in-the-net without their realising it.

As it is, Astro is sending out notices to tell subscribers that they
should be receiving a "new improved security smart card", during the
1st week of September.

The existing card will not work after Sep 30, 2004. Take it or leave it!

Now, there is a catch. Coming with this new card is a Astro Subscriber
agreement.

If you go to Astro website, you should know that, by accepting the new
card and activating it, you are tied to Astro for another 12 months
thereafter!

If you decide to stop the service from Astro after the activation of
the "new" card, you can be charged an "agreed fee" of RM500! (see
screenshot below)

Some subscribers have used Astro for more than 12 months - some years
- now comes the next 12-month force-stay period after the activaiton
of the "new" card.

Another borig day gone by? wat shall i do?
go out ? go out do wat lei? drink meh? everyday do sameting dam boring la!!

©2004 someting i did in the lab 3 years ago wif powerpoint when i was dam bored..oh yes wif powerpoint lesson =P

Stupid Things I do wif a torchlight when i can't sleep

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Nicholas Loh
"hardwork is a product of desperate circumstances"

Michel de Montaigne
"I prefer the company of peasants because they have not been educated sufficiently to reason incorrectly."

Arthur Schopenhauer
"We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves in order to be like other people."

H. L. Mencken
"The government consists of a gang of men exactly like you and me. They have, taking one with another, no special talent for the business of government; they have only a talent for getting and holding office."

Rabbi Julius Gordon
"Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less."

Fyodor Dostoevsky
"The second half of a man's life is made up of nothing but the habits he has acquired during the first half."

David Frost
"He's turned his life around. He used to be depressed and miserable. Now he's miserable and depressed."

Jerry Seinfeld
"A bookstore is one of the only pieces of evidence we have that people are still thinking."

George Bernard Shaw

"There are two tragedies in life. One is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it."


Adrienne E. Gusoff
"Any woman who thinks the way to a man's heart is through his stomach is aiming about 10 inches too high."

William Hazlitt
"Man is the only animal that laughs and weeps, for he is the only animal that is struck with the difference between what things are and what they ought to be."

Benjamin Disraeli
"My idea of an agreeable person is a person who agrees with me."

Elvis Presley
"I don't know anything about music. In my line you don't have to."

Albert Einstein
"As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain; and as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality."

Some intresting Facts about Malaysia you wouldn't bother to know
OR they wouldn't want to highlight

total National Debt as of is at RM 194.56 billions!!!
source:world Bank [http://www.worldbank.org/data/countrydata/aag/mys_aag.pdf]

revenues: USD$25.2 billion
expenditures: USD$28.9 billion, including capital expenditures of $9.4 billion (2004 est.)
Were spending more than we earn!! oh gosh!
Source:World CIA factbook [http://www.cia.gov/cia/publications/factbook/geos/my.html]

Mean While For the US
revenues: USD$1.946 trillion
expenditures: USD$2.052 trillion, including capital expenditures of NA (2002 est.)
1 trillion = 1000 billion

Aahahah ignoring inflation, their annual budget is enough to run malaysia for 70 years!!! lol

Since gov's money theoritically is our money , so gov debt is our debt too!! so sleep in peace, knowing were all in debt =P not to mention the bank loan u have!!

Given that the malaysian population is at 25.58 million
source:Bank Negara [http://www.bnm.gov.my/index.php?ch=111]

so,

total national debt/total population = 194.56 billion / 25.58 million = 7 605.94214

Meaning we each have a debt of RM 7605.94214, so Congragulation , your 3 month old baby has a debt of 7k++!!! lol (credit goes to grace for her idea, of calculating the debt per person)

Disclaimer : I do not warrant the information to be correct or precise, they were obtained from the web, i'm not even an economist. Read my disclaimer at the bottom of the page too!!For private distribution only, don't circulate in public, unverified and unprecise facts like this can be dangerous *hint hint*

©2004 Nicholas Loh

"Easy Company of the 506th Parachute Infantry Regiment, 101st Airborne Division saw fierce fighting on the front lines of the European theater from Normandy to Hitler's Eagle Nest. They are the focus of the BBC/HBO miniseries Band of Brothers, and the First-Person Shooter Medal of Honor: Allied Assault." Dam good Movie!!! mus watch!! its based on a true story!!! - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Band_of_Brothers

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would u dare fly in one? ©2004 Nicholas Loh

Look at that thrust baby!! ©2004 Nicholas Loh

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small pathetic air plane ©2004 Nicholas Loh

A light air craft racing wif a 737? ©2004 Nicholas Loh

Tons of ppl line up jus to take a peep inside this ww2 era heli, Doh ©2004 Nicholas Loh

737 in the sky ©2004 Nicholas Loh

737 Taking off ©2004 Nicholas Loh

Photos From wind Cave trip
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2 in the water, my bro and my uncle ©2004 Nicholas Loh

Shadows of a tree ©2004 Nicholas Loh

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