And so it goes on...
it's 3, can't sleep, thinking about my future,i'm goin to take the 1st
step to realizing my dreams, so much thoughts running through, i've
always had ridiculous dream since high school to build a multi-billion
dollar empire with my frens,so i can buy all the big boy's toy like
fast cars, big cars, a Boeing..lol, a house off the coast of italy,an
accousticly tuned and designed music room, and the list goes on..but
as grew older...i realize how ridiculous and impossible my dreams
were, and also some ppl told me money is evil,i also learn money isnt
everyting,i might have all the stuff and still not be happy. i began
to ponder, what shall i do with my life? tot of being an average joe,
work -> get married->have kids->DIE! lol, but than i swore las time i
wun be like tat and its boring, tot of being an aide worker or
activist or someting like tat, the list goes on...but today i have
come to a conclusion, i will pursue my original dream, its impossible,
i most probaly will not achieve it, i will not be a billionaire, but
if i did try hard, i'll at least be a millionaire, i wun afford a
lambo or a ferrari but i'll be able to afford a BMW, money is evil?
yes and no, its a tool, it can be good , it can be bad...with money, i
can do good, i can support a worthy cause, i can do nice things to
ppl, i can have a company that provides good product or service at a
very reasonable price, thats doing good too. For example, look at Mel
Gibson, lets say his not rich, not famous, u tink he can afford to
make passion of christ? that would touch millions later on? George
soros is a rich bastard, but he spends most of his money fighting for
the cause he believes in, an open society, the thing is u can do good
with out power and money, but u can do more good with power and money,
so dun be shy, go make yerself rich =p Go follow your dreams and die a
satisfied man, and oh yea...next time u see me spending money like
nobody's bizness, remind me,,, "kawan, save money for business capital
lei.."

Im Still in Bloody KL..
After comin back from genting...the theme park dam sien wan..the thrill rides not thrilling enough... and line dam long somemore...
a real let down was the go kart ... DAM SLOW i tell u... my leg was always on the accelrator!!!! rarely on brakes..wat a let down..
now bck in KL amd bored again!!! hai KL DAM Sien wif out kaki,
only ting to do is shopping...shopping not really my cup of tea!
KL dam sien la wif out kaki.. u guys la all go bck Kch or somewhere else... hiong kan..got conspiracy isit!?ahahhaha
limpehvery sien!!!

blogging in a cyber now in KL on the top floor of low yat...
my 1st day at KL!? BORING! FUCKING BORING!!!
i'm supposedly at one of the happening area around in town,
BB area..but im still bored..cos there is noting to do here but shop shop shop shop....and im not really a shopping freak, im the type who likes go to one place... find it..grab it and go do some other intresting stuff... KL well..is a abit amusing..at giant i saw them selling matching flower bra and panties for 4.99 a pair! lol tats the price of a wantan mee here! and i saw Rm4 bucks mouse...dunno if they work..but i guess they will...tats it for now..im lazy to type

so much in my head, yet there is peace,
jus got bck from watchin alexander, he might be alexander the
great..but
also his alexander the GAY!
The movie made me think, what is the purpose of greatness if so many
died and suffered, you loose your friends, you kill your own friends,
in the
end for you to die and have your kingdom fall apart again? Is there
greatness in taking so many lifes? crushing many hopes?
where is the greatness in that? to me greatness is in simple
things,greatness is to give life, greatness is to give joy, not take
nor
deprieve,
I can easily get a knife and start killing, some crack ass terrorist
can
blow up a nuke and kill millions, but not give life or spread joy...it
takes selflessnes, it takes courage.True greatness is to give, not to
take.

Nick is a symphony of character, feelings, emotions and thoughts =)
©2004

I Hereby pronounce today DEC 2, 2004! ANXIOUS day! anxious bout my exam result and anxious about other stuff..i never felt so fucking anxious in my whole fucking life!!

What i wrote out of boredome...

/* ©2004 Nicholas Loh - does not compile..if u try..ur stupid*/

#include stdio.h
#include package.humansense.see
#include package.sex.*
#include package.emotions.*

function areUinLoveWifHer ( char[30] name);

char[30] main (char[30] name_of_who_u_love)

char[30] result="";

if(love=areUinLoveWifHer(name_of_who_u_love,,&result)){
if(shelovesu=true){
if(willbehappy=true){
if(compatible){love.action.court_her()};
};
};
};




return char;

};


function areUinLoveWifHer ( char[30] name, char* result) {
int inlove%=0;

if (see.name=emotions.happy) { inlove%++};

if(see.name=sex.high){if(sex.high.desireOnly){inlove%--}
else if(sex.high.islove){inlove%++};

if(inlove%>50) {return strcpy(*result,"mayb yer in love" , return true);

if(inlove%<50){return strcpy(*result,"u jus wanna fuck her" , return false);

if(inlove%>90){return strcpy(*result,"u should fucking marry her" return true);
}

Your Lexmark printer and scanner spying on u!!
http://www.engadget.com/common/jump.asp?win_cc=1523287196564953

WOhoooo!!! Exam over...hopefully i'd pass all my sub and grad!!
Than it will be a new chapter of my life! mayb it's time i start thinking wat i really want with my life..wat i want to make of myself!! time to ponder and ponder and live it and not waste life away, so god help me =p

Finding my self
over and over
in the cloud of confusion
trying to find who i am
but the answer is always
the same
it's me
it's always the me i am
after all it's not bout finding
who i am
but its always rediscovering again
and again who i was
what i am
what i alawys been
it's always bout goin bck to my own road
no matter who or what lead me astray
i'd find my way back to me

so to the some of u...
who might mean well (thanks) or mean ill (go screw yerself)
telling me what i should be
who i should become
shut the fuck up!
i dun give a dam!
what u say or wat u tink
you're not me
you've never been me
you don't know who i am
with the grace of god
i shall be my ultimate judge
to what i am
to who i will be

for those who has always been there
accepting me for being me
being there for me no matter in what times
your truly great friends that i cherish

My advice,
just be you
listen to your inner self
follow your inner zeal
be who you are
your beautiful =)
even if your wrong,
you'll die being yourself
not someone else!

©2004 Nicholas Loh

Today i learned of a hero i respect, one younger than i am, a 13 year old who died at 13, but did many wonders , much more than most of us can.He inspired millions with his poetry ,with the message of peace and love. He had greatness alot of us lack , to geniunely care for others even when his on life is on the line.Here are some of his inspiring work:

Every journey begins
With but a small step.
And every day is a chance
For a new, small step
In the right direction.
Just follow your Heartsong.

by Mattie Stepanek

and he wrote when he was just 11, I want people to know that in every life there are storms. But we must remember to play after every storm and to celebrate the gift of life as we have it, or else life becomes a task, rather than a gift. We must always listen to the song in our heart, and share that song with others.

to know more
read
http://myhero.com/myhero/hero.asp?hero=mattieStepanek
http://www.oprah.com/spiritself/insp/psp/ss_insp_psp_mattie.jhtml

my faith is at it's edge,
does it pay to be the good guy? does it pay to uphold moral values?
does it pay to do the right thing and not indulgede in temptations?
it doesnt seem to pay doin the right thing....tings jus go wrong
my faith is at play, so help me god

Another Wasted day..Doing wasted stuff
las nite i drank like mad again and of cos..spend like mad!
should have jus followed my instinct and went home.
i'd save money, not torment my liver, not waking up feeling like shit
and not the mention the guilt..wtf man

from http://yro.slashdot.org/article.pl?sid=04/10/05/1823254&tid=153

"The Malaysian blogosphere is currently in uproar as one of their most famous bloggers, a political observer named Jeff Ooi, has been threatened with action under the country's draconian ISA (Internal Security Act) law which allows a person to be detained without trial if he is thought to threaten "national security". The whole problem started with a comment made by a reader of the blog. The comment is alleged to have been insulting of Islam. A national newspaper (whose editor has frequently been a target of Ooi's blog) took up the story and accused the blogger of insulting Islam, while Ooi in his defence states he warned (and later deleted) the offending commenter when he was alerted to it. Malaysian bloggers meanwhile are outraged that a blogger should be held responsible for comments made by readers. In the case of Ooi's blog, which attracts thousands of hits per day, it is logistically impossible for Ooi to read and moderate every comment made. The whole saga can be followed in Jeff Ooi's Screenshots blog."


check out www.jeffooi.com for the whole detail!!

why is there a deep urge for me to escape!? to run away?
am i a coward? or am it to run away and rediscover myself?
to be the best of who i am?

Bored boring very bored, not tat i dun have work to do, i got tons of assign to do, jus tat their not exciting at all..its all so so so so boring!

DAM astro piss me off again! They censored anwar's CNN' interview! wtf !!! anyway for those of u who are intrested , an unofficial version of the transcipt is availaible here:
http://www.mggpillai.com/sections.php3?op=viewarticle&artid=7840

"BMW unveils world's fastest hydrogen car
'H2R' uses traditional combustion engine, not fuel cells"
http://msnbc.msn.com/id/6089614/

who wants a gmail? drop me a line

~Live Your Love~

by Max The Poet®





Live your love,

Feel what is real,

Seek your destiny,

With the ultimate zeal.

~

Live your love,

Find what completes you,

Be the best that you can be,

In everything you do.

~

Live your love,

Make your dreams come true,

You can do most anything,

That you want to do.

~

Believe in yourself,

Reach for a star,

Nurture, what it is,

That makes you who you are.

~

Live your love,

Reach out, touch others,

Find your purpose on this Earth,

We are all sisters and brothers.

~

When you dream, dream big,

You can make it if you try,

Fear not, failure,

Failure is a lie.

~

Take your gift and share it,

Share it freely with everyone,

The talent you possess,

Shines brighter than the sun.

~

Live your love,

Follow your heart,

Listen to your inner voice,

Like you have, from the start.

~

An awesome tune of might and power,

Is contained, therein,

Listen to the melody,

As each day begins.

~

Your gift is awesome,

It is sent from above,

Capture success and harness it,

Be bold and live your love.