Prologue

In a moment a year has passed, a tremendous year of joy and tears. A year of many challenges that brought many changes. From the comforting bliss of my home to a city full of madness but also full of possibilities, from loosing weight to gaining it back, from graduating uni to taking up a crappy course meant to short change the Rakyat’s money, from a Jusco cheap labour to now more professional but even cheaper labour at Accenture, from driving to everywhere to now walking and taking to buses to anywhere.

The Story of a Boy

Sounds pretty bad huh? Not really, not until you hear the whole story,
So here goes, the story of a boy, called Nick. Nick came here as an immigrant, being homeless and all, his “Cimui” took him in as a refugee, fleeing from the boredness of his home town hoping to find excitement, career and who knows maybe even love. So little nick went job hunting eyeing those tough to get jobs, not wanting a boring job in any small time firm, thinking he has all it takes (he actually does, just a matter of time before all is unleashed, than a tremble will resonate across the corporate world). He landed a job with a big multinational, but little did he know that this Japanese multinational is not his cup of green tea. Being so happy that he was given the title of “management trainee”, he moves out from refugee camp and found himself a place. Sharing his apartment with a multimedia guy and a fitness buff who also happens to be a fitness trainer, After orientation, all seems good and bright, After few weeks only did he know what actually management trainee means in Jusco, It means multi-purpose do-it-all cheap labour, so cheap he had to carry stuff and at the same time do stupid documentations. The hours were long, the pay so little (RM1450 after epf), neither was there overtime or any other attractive remuneration.

He knew he had to get out. So he started looking or a new job, a few calls he did get, but before he could go for any interviews, he heard of a course fully paid for by government where he’ll learn all the “latest” language and framework, so he resigned from his job and took up the course. But still in doubt if he had done the right thing, since they were a lot of grads that are unemployed. Only recently he conceded it was the right decision, everyone in his batch has resigned (the last one this December). Excited he was about the course, only later to find out that his class had inexperienced lecturers who doesn’t know shit bout what they’re teaching. Worst still he was put into a class which was ahead for a month, furious he was, but soon took it up as a challenge to play catch up, even though he did catch up, he never mastered what he learned up to his own expectation. So along came his first project, he came up with a great idea and pitched it to his team, they liked it and made him project manager, excited he was little nick, he wanted to build a “perfect” application, so he worked hard, delegated some of the part which he thought was less critical. They were co-operative people but some were not so good in programming, some really didn’t understand his grand design. So what came up was an application half of his expectation. Never the less, he didn’t blame his team because he knew they had put in their effort, he reckon his mistake was he never monitored their progress enough or clearly communicated his expectation.

Then came the second project, he was rudely pushed into another group by his lecturer, than again determined not to let that keep him from trying to build another great application, he again came up with a great idea, he pitched it to his lecturer and then to his new team, they too think it was a great idea, so the current manager suggested he took over as project manager, but they was a problem with one of the group members, he was power gila, and insisted, he be made project manager, due to nick’s concern the project will abruptly screw up if the Mr. power gila became PM (It is rumored that Mr.gila is a Syok sendiri racist pig), so he used a few tricks in his book of nick ( for e,g the book of Screw with me, you die ; the book of F*ck off asshole and etc).He manage to rally a majority support for him to become Project manager. Determined not to make the same mistake, he articulated his design clearly in documents ,from class diagrams to database schema, than delegated the work out, opting to do the core of the application himself, but to his dismay, one group member never finish her module, Mr. Power gila deviated from the design and had his own variation of the database schema, and he never finished his part too! Frustrated he was that he felt like whacking them all. But he told himself, he tried his best, circumstances were not in his favor. From that day onwards, he swore he would try his every best not to work with incompetent people.

So after that, it was almost the end of his course, which required him to undergo a 3-month internship. He was accepted into Accenture as an intern and was placed on a database-warehousing project. On the first day he was excited, he met the team, all seem like very competent people, second day, he was thrown a task and given a deadline, than another task. He made quite a few silly mistakes, annoying his supervisor, than after that, it was all “self study” assignments, which made him bored, so bored, he actually wrote this piece, than he was given the responsibility to organize the team Christmas party, the pressure were on, because they would be invited guest, and the project manager insisted the party to be near perfect. But luckily, the team was pretty helpful, particularly one adorable cutie called D and his supervisor called O. And the story goes on……to the year of 2006



People Behind the Scene

VJ – a friend he met in Jusco, who resigned one week after nick and now working for one of the big 4 audit firms, regularly meets up with nick to have a nice chat bout finance and business stuff.

Cimui a.k,a not so straight buddy – The one who took the refugee in when he first came to KL and help him get in tune with crazy life in KL.

Hostel mate – too many to list , most of them Sabahan , and 2 Chinese, one a self centered assh*le he disliked, but soon moved out.

The gang – his bunch of home town friends whom he did a lot of crazy things with and share the same dream, but sadly he never really got to meet up with some of them for year of 2005, most of them scattered down under. Except one who is in KL but sadly exiled to semenyih.

The adorable cutie (D) – his newfound friend who he would bug when he has nothing better to do.

Mum & Dad – personal banker of nick, providing services such as cash on demand

Ka Che- his most matured close friend he usually rant to about anything and everything

Chie chie – Another one of his more matured friend who he sometimes do lunch or dinner with.

Sara – his musical friend who he always planned to go watch Philharmonic orchestra with but never realized

Steph – his kch fren who came to KL for love, once almost drove around the entire south side of KL looking for a famous mamak, but never found it.

Cindy – his long lost high school friend whom he often regards as the most goodie and nicest gal he knows.

Uncle – his real uncle who was in KL working as senior manager at one of the big 4 until he recently resigned and move down under, regularly takes little nick out for lunch or dinner when he was in KL.

And etc –If i didn’t list you; it’s not that your not important to me, I’m jus getting lazy.


Prospectus for the year of 2006

All in the year of 2006 seems better for nick; hopefully he will get a good job that pays well. He will be getting a car, finance by his personal banker on the condition he gets a job. He will than move out of his ratchet hostel and find a nice place to stay and continue trying to make his dream come true, he is truly bullish about the years to come.




To end this long winding Annual report, I would like to quote from myself in one of my blog posting dated July18 2005:

“Do you have a dream? i have , i dream about it everyday, sometime with disappointments , sometime with hope, sometime with emotions , sometime with excitements. I dream not of an event or an achievements, but i dream of a journey, a journey of fulfillments, a journey till my last breathe. In my dreams, i see the person i dream to be, the decision i will make, the emotions I will feel, the people around me , the character that i am , the things i will do, my believes and even the challenges i will face, As i gaze upon the city nightline, it struck me that i struggle to find myself in this bustling city, where for many pride and materialism is a relieve from cruel reality, yet it is a city so diverse with many inspiring people, the action seems so near yet so far, I vow to live my dreams day by day, but i know that all is in the hand of god. Many of you who are close to me will partially know what i mean, what my dreams are, and some of our dreams cross and weave together. I call upon you my frens,no matter how far apart, live you dream day by day, so we might weave our dreams together into a grand dream we all share.”

©2005 Nicholas Loh , Copyrights Reserved, Do not copy or redistribute , private content.
For legal reason, this work shall be considered as a parody or fictional and not factual in nature.


Happy New year and may the year of 2006 be one great year for all


Cheers,
Nicholas Loh

Bored at office
after having my industrial placement here for a week, today is the most boring of all! no jobs, no work, my assignment, "self study"
arghh...i am BORED!!! i don't know wat else to write, when i'm bored i'm not inspired to write...sorry guys, oh btw, i jus discovered all the funiture in the pantry are actually ikea funitures

bzbzbbzbz
sorry guys, haven't blog for ages,quite bz lately, din even had time to blog about my kch trip,anyway i had a very good time,but after coming bck KL , it seems all hell has broke loose, my project was 50% disaster, its frustrating man, knowing tat u design it well, did your part well and than only to have other ppl screw it up,argghh i hate working with incompetent ppl...one fellow in my group didn't do his part up to my spec,not only tat,he din follow the database schema i gave him, another member DID NOT COMPLETE her part,luckily i forseen things like tat to happen and did a majority of the system myself,or else i would not only had a non-complete system to present but a non-existence perverted system .well tats the pass..
anyway, now i'm having my industrial placment at accenture, really bz man,1st day there and they threw me a deadline already, but , in a way its good ,i like a good challange, almost can't meet the deadline, luckily did thanks to my sifue, almost everyday i worked till 8-9 at nite , not tat they forced me to, but i feel compelled to, since i had a deadline and their still all there working, it much more nicer working with a competent and dedicated team, unlike the previous team i worked with,its really rewarding, i'm probaly the less competent person in the team rite now,lol, i'm building the my job with out much understanding of how it actually works,using a development tool i had no idea it existed, made alot of stupid mistakes, kinda frustrating, but it's a challange, and i hope to change all tat, its really ironic,all the while i would be the one designing the system and communicating it to the other members and had them build it, but now i'm blindly following some one else's design.

Landmark Case in malaysia?
The star oct 27
KUALA LUMPUR: Blind singer-cum-musician Alfred Ho was refunded half the price of a MP3 player he bought which he claimed was not user-friendly.

The Consumer Claims Tribunal president Jailani Rahman awarded RM350 to Ho for the RM699 MP3 Creative Zen Neeon player he had bought from Infoflex-I Sdn Bhd.

the SP war in brickfield and the peeing tom + hot pursuit

ah.. tats alot to blog bout in a single post, but hell tats bcos i haven not been blogging for a while, SP? wat is SP? SP stands for sound pressure, usually measured in db or decibel, Depavali is near, so u have all those stalls set up along brickfield selling depavali goods, as gimmick to attract customer, few of those stall set up big ass concert speakers, some even with DJ to attract customer, the annoying ting is their all trying to drown out each other, cranking it up to max volume, in the process anoying customer, any one walking nearby the speakers will suffer momentary loss of heaaring, prolong exposure would also result from momentrary to being upgraded to permanent..

Now the intresting part, the peeing tom, recently a fren told me very early in the morning he saw a gal change, and boy, he saw everyting, the gal din draw the curtain tinkin no one would probaly be lookin so early in the morning, he wasnt, bullshiting, it was caught on tape, but he was "ethical" enough to erase the footage after showing us..SO gAls, ALWAYS DRAW YOUR CURTAIN WHEN U CHANGE OR PLAN TO GET NAKED, u never know who's lookin, even at odds hours!! if you don't you might instantly be upgraded to celebrity status appearing in file swaps, internet site,emails and who knows..even VCD!

and oh yea..the hot pursuit, it was sat nite, my 1st blackout experience in KL,it was dam hot and noting to do, luckily my frens laptop was fully charged, so we decide to catch a movie on DVD, ,but suddenly there was a real show going in brickfields, police car were going around, police helicopters were going around with those big blinding searchlights, according to my housemate, he heard on radio there was an armed robery in brickfield, wat a perfect timing, jus when the black out occur in brickfield , there was a robbery, is it really prefect timing or isit planned? has malaysian criminals reach a point of sophistication tat they can induce a black out for robbery? man tats scary..

if someone ever wanna tell me bout my future, i'll ask if its good or bad, if its good rite... i'd say tat all i need to know, if its bad, i'd wan more details? know why? i tell tml! stay tuned ehehe

ans: If it's good, all i wanna know it's good, i dun wanna know the details, if i know it wun be fun anymore working towards my future, it's the journey and suprise tat makes life beautiful,if i know, they wun be countless beautiful possibilities,if it's bad , i wanna know the details, so i can do wat ever i can to make it jus a wat if tat never happen

if someone ever wanna tell me bout my future, i'll ask if its good or bad, if its good rite... i'd say tat all i need to know, if its bad, i'd wan more details? know why? i tell tml! stay tuned ehehe

ans: If it's good, all i wanna know it's good, i dun wanna know the details, if i know it wun be fun anymore working towards my future, it's the journey and suprise tat makes life beautiful,if i know, they wun be countless beautiful possibilities,if it's bad , i wanna know the details, so i can do wat ever i can to make it jus a wat if tat never happen

how's life folks? it's been mad for me, busy, intresting in an academic sense, in life sense..its boring as hell,, its all class and project, lots of stuff to do so little time, but i'm really looking forward to going back to kch, can't wait man, miss the food, miss my home, miss my family and frens...hope to see u all soon.

you know wat? now it will be easier for u to grab your cash anytime anywhere, maybank customers now can also withdraw their money from cashiers of participating merchants!! yes , u did hear rite! cashiers!! of cos u still be subjected to the usual RM1 meps charge. i cant really imagine, going to the cashier to withdrawl your money! and OH... did u know , now that google is worth more than indonesia's combined market equity !! a search engine is worth more than the world's 4th most populated nation, it's really cheap!! no wonder they have been a spate of aquisition of indonesian asset by malaysian companies, but it does come with a high risk premium given the many chaos indonesia can churn out from time to time, but if they can turn tings around, those who bought a "piece" of indonesia cheap will get really rich!

ubuntu!! the Linux distro with a mission

"Ubuntu" is an ancient African word, meaning "humanity to others". Ubuntu also means "I am what I am because of who we all are". The Ubuntu Linux distribution brings the spirit of Ubuntu to the software world.

The Ubuntu community is built on the ideas enshrined in the Ubuntu Manifesto: that software should be available free of charge, that software tools should be usable by people in their local language and despite any disabilities, and that people should have the freedom to customise and alter their software in whatever way they see fit.


it's cool...check it out!
http://www.ubuntu.com/

Project project project..im going nuts man! project back to back, less thn 2 weeks to finish a project! compliment of cosmopoint, they reallys screw up our schedule! if psmb finds out..i tink their gonna really get screwed!! It's so long since i blogged man, been so bz like mad, when i find the free time, im too tired to blog, or im at "home" wif out a pc wat more to say an internet connection!

anywya the recent events in parliment were very intresting, the case where 2 BN MP stood in support of Lim kit Siangs motion to refer our own "iron lady" to the privilage commitee is someting beautiful, its bipartisan democracy at work, but sadly the next day , action was to be taken againts them, crap man, wats wrong with standing up and and speak up for wat u believe in?? after all they are elected representative of the ppl! Can't a member of BN see eye to eye with the opposition, politicians should fight for public common good, not for jus the common good of the party! and jus yesterday , Datuk Shahrir called for the re-enactment of the Parliamentary Services Act 1963 for better palimentary autonomy,the call was unnanimously su the act was repealed in 1992, for wat reason , i dunno yet, would love to find out.but aint got the time rite now, i wonder if it was lim kit siang who called for the re-enactment, would it get tat kinda suport? would those who support the call get party whipping?

The new Beginning...


Hello guys and girls , leng lois and leng cais, Sisters and brothers and family, how are u all? im fine, very fine today..ehhee
sorry i haven bloged for such a long time , been really bz, had my project, its now history, now the documentation,another project is coming up soon, its like the projects are back to back..crazy man!!! jus had my interview , been studying like mad the past few days for the interview, the ironic ting there was not a single technical question at all!! anyway i got accepted into Accenture for indutrial placement, their office is at KLCC!! yea!! hahaa lvl 66, i can imagine the breathtaking view now.. =p excited man , hopefully i will perform well and be hired as permanent staff..i heard the pay is real good!! and oh guys if ur reading this..hi , i miss u guys! yes u heard it...i usually don say this , i miss u guys! i miss all the drinking and damai session, hope to see u guys soon, im going back during hari raya, so if any of u happen to be back then give me a call or someting la...

Racism in msia?
article pluck from http://diffy.blogspot.com/
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I have been meaning to pen some thoughts for some time now, to let people actually read the views of the typical 'overseas Malaysian' who is kept away. I realise that my email is rather long, but I do hope that you would consider publishing it (and also keep my name private!).

I shall start by telling a little about my background. Mine is a rather sad tale - of a young Malaysian full of hope and patriotic enthusiasm, which is slowly but surely trickling away.

I am very different from many other non-bumiputeras, as I was given tremendous opportunities throughout my childhood. Born into a middle-class Chinese but English-speaking family, I grew up with all the
privileges of imported books, computers, piano/violin lessons and tuition teachers.

My parents insisted that I should be exposed to a multi-racial education in a national school. In my time, my urban national school (a missionary school)was a truly happy place - where the Malays, Chinese
and Indian students were roughly equal in proportion. We played and laughed with each other, and studied the history of the world together during Form 4, with one interesting chapter dedicated to Islamic history.

Though 75% of my teachers were Malays, I never really noticed. My Malay teachers were the kindest to me - teaching me well and offering me every possible opportunity to develop. I led the district teams for
English and Bahasa Malaysia debating competitions. I was the only non-Malay finalist in the Bahasa Malaysian state-level elocution competition. My Malay teachers encouraged me to transfer to a government residential school (sekolah berasrama penuh) so as to
enable me to maximise my academic potential. I refused because I was happy where I was, so they made me head prefect and nominated me as a 'Tokoh Pelajar Kebangsaan'.

Till this day, I am absolutely certain that it was the kindness of all my Malay teachers which made me a true Malaysian.

I excelled at school and was offered a Singaporean government scholarship to study overseas. I turned them down because I wanted to ensure that I would remain a 'true Malaysian' in the eyes of Malaysia.
So I accepted a Malaysian government scholarship to study at Oxford University. Throughout my three years as an undergraduate, the officers at the MSD looked after me very well, and was always there to offer
support.

I graduated with first class honours, and was offered a job with a leading investment bank. The JPA released me from my bond, so as to enable me to develop my potential. I shall always be grateful for that. I worked hard and rose in rank. My employer sent to me to Harvard University for postgraduate study and I climbed further up their meritocratic ladder.

Now I am 31 years old and draw a comfortable monthly salary of US$22,000. Yet, I yearn to return home. I miss my home, my family, my friends, my Malaysian hawker food and the life in Malaysia. I have been
asked many times by Singaporean government agencies to join them on very lucrative terms, but I have always refused due to my inherent patriotism.

I really want to return home. I have been told by government-linked corporations and private companies in Malaysia that at best, I would still have to take a 70% pay cut if I return to Malaysia to work. I am
prepared and willing to accept that. My country has done a lot for me, so I should not complain about money.

But of late, my idealistic vision of my country has really come crashing down, harder and faster than ever before.

I read about the annual fiasco involving non-bumiputera top scorers who are denied entry to critical courses at local universities and are offered forestry and fisheries instead. (My cousin scored 10A1's for SPM and yet was denied a scholarship).

I read about UMNO Youth attacking the so-called meritocracy system because there are less than 60% of Malay students in law and pharmacy, whilst conveniently keeping silent about the fact that 90% of overseas scholarship recipients are Malays and that Malays form the vast majority in courses like medicine, accountancy and engineering at local universities.

I read about the Higher Education Minister promising that non-bumiputera Malaysians will never ever step foot into UiTM.

I read about a poor Chinese teacher's daughter with 11A1's being denied a scholarship, while I know some Malay friends who scored 7A's and whose parents are millionaires being given scholarships.

I read about the brilliant Prof. K.S. Jomo, who was denied a promotion to Senior Professor (not even to Head of Department), although he was backed by references from three Nobel Prize winners. Of course, his talent is recognised by a prestigious appointment at the United Nations.

I read about UMNO Youth accusing Chinese schools of being detrimental to racial integration, while demanding that Mara Junior Science Colleges and other residential schools be kept only for Malays.

I read about the Malay newspaper editors attacking the private sector for not appointing enough Malays to senior management level, whilst insisting that the government always ensure that Malays dominate anything government-related.

I read that at our local universities, not a single Vice-Chancellor or Deputy Vice-Chancellor is non-Malay.

I read that in the government, not a single Secretary-General of any ministry is non-Malay. The same goes for all government agencies like the police, armed forces, etc.

I read about UMNO screaming for the Malay Agenda, but accusing everyone else of racism for whispering about equality.

I read about a poor Indian lady having to pay full price for a low-cost house after being dispossessed from a plantation, whilst Malay millionaires demand their 10% bumiputera discount when buying RM2 million bungalows in a gated community.

I read about my beloved national schools becoming more and more Islamic by the day, enforced by overzealous principals.

I read about my Form 4 World History (Sejarah Dunia) syllabus, which now contains only one chapter of world history, with Islamic history covering the rest of the book.

As I read all this, I tremble with fear. I love my country and long to return. I am willing to take a 70% pay cut. I am willing to face a demotion. I honestly want to contribute my expertise in complex financial services and capital markets. But really, is there a future for me, for my children and for their children? I am truly frightened.

I can deal with the lack of democracy, the lack of press freedom, the ISA, our inefficient and bureaucratic civil service, our awful manners and even a little corruption. But I cannot deal with racism in my homeland.

I think this is the single biggest factor which is keeping people like myself away. And bear in mind - there are so many of us (researchers, scientists, bankers, economists, lawyers, academics, etc.). What people read about in Malaysia (like Dr Terence Gomez)is but the tiniest tip of the iceberg. You will be amazed to know about Malaysians denied JPA scholarships (which would have made them civil servants), took loans to attend Ivy League universities, but who are later asked to advise our government (on IT, economics, etc.) at fees running to millions of US dollars. Such information will never be published because it is politically incorrect.

As a Christian, I pray for God's blessing on this great country of ours. I pray that He blesses our leaders with the foresight and humanity to see that this will not work and cannot continue. I pray that they will have the strength to make our country a home for all Malaysians and that they will have mercy for the poor, including the non-Malays. I pray for true racial harmony and acceptance (not just tolerance) in Malaysia.

Yours sincerely,
A very frightened Malaysian abroad

i'm getting pissed man, year and over year for the past decade, the haze has came bck, and the ting tat pisses me off the most is, its not a natural phenomena, this one we cant blame mother nature for it, Its human doing, and to add insult to injury, its not even done by malaysians, were suffering due to the direct consequences of the irresponsibilities of our neighbour country, why cant they do anyting bout it, its happens year and year and year again!! Rot in hell who ever are those tat started the fire as a cheap mean of clearing forest. Your unleashing a mild-weapon of mass destruction, malaysians are paying the price with our health and life, i hope the gov would do someting bout it, in fact the international community should do someting about it, indonesia has over and over again failed to curb the problem that their neighbours have to pay the price , mayb some kinda trade embargo or boycott is in order, some might say such measures are too far fetch, but look at it this way, their irresponsible actions has affected the health of many malaysians, they might not be many instant death, but long term effects suchs as lung cancer and other respritory illness can cause death, not to mention economics loss, its like their unleashing some form of low tech biological weapon, screw them, i'm pissed, i'm depressed with the haze, screw the irresponsible indons, so much for appreciation of the millions we have send in aid! and the hunderead thousand of job oppurtunity we have provided!

Well i was proven wrong , this change is exciting, my hostel is jus near KLsentral, so it's very convinient,plus i got a room all to myself!!! cos so far i have no room mate, lets hope it stays this way untill i fnish my course! my housemate are quite nice ppl , they cook every night, and we share the cost of the raw material, suprisingly most of them are catholic, there it was a week ago, moving into a hostel , not knowhing how it will be, how my housemate will be like, wat are the odds man tat mos of them are Catholic!? ahhaa god really has answered my prayers, on another matter, when i was walking around during lunch look for a new place to eat, i saw quite a few old ppl along the way sleeping on the streets, wtf man, With all the AP and NEP issue going aroud, they still are bigger issue here tat never really gets highlited, only once in a while when a tv station turns to highlight an unlucky few, but never have i heard any statistic of proverty or income distribution, wat is the use if the Bumi achieve 30% control of market equity, but that wealth is distributed to a select few? why bother making millionaire, billionaires? wat i tink is the gov should focus on wealth distribution, regardless of race or religion, in tat way , since the Bumi are the majority of the population, naturaly they will hold a substantial stake in the equity market, and i also tink measuring an economic progress of a community by its equity holding are not accurate, i tink a more accurate way would be through contribution to GDP. Thats all for now folk..hungry..goin for lunch

This time for Real , i'm gonna move to the hostel, later i'm gonna go take a look at it, kinda nervous , not knowing wat to expect, and i haven't anyting but not so good tings bout it.not gonna be the best week end i reckon, i have to start packing when i get home later..sigh, sometime change is exciting but not this one... lets hope i'm proven wrong.

The Return

It has been ages since i blog, use to be i din have time, thn it's because i dun have the mood, don't complain, Look up on top of the page and Read out loud wat the tittle of my blog says

Today's topic is dreams..ah yes dreams..

Do you have a dream? i have , i dream about it everyday, sometime with dissapointment , sometime with hope, sometime with emotions , sometime with excitment. I dream not of an event or an achievemtns, but i dream of a journey, a journey of fullfilment, a journey till my last breathe.In my dreams, i see the person i dream to be, the decision i will make,the emotions i will feel,the people around me , the character that i am , the things i will do,my believes and even the challanges i will face, As i gaze upon the city nightline, it strucks me that i struggle to find myself in this bustling city, where for many pride and materialism is a relieve from cruel reality, yet it is a city so diverse with many inspiring people, the action seems so near yet so far, I vow to live my dreams day by day, but i know that all is in the hand of god.Many of you who are close to me will partially know what i mean, what my dreams are, and some of our dreams cross and weave togather. I call upon you my frens,no matter how far apart, live you dream day by day, so we might weave our dreams togather into a grand dream we all share.

©2005 Nicholas Loh , Copyrights Reserved, Do not copy or redistribute , private content

Hello guys i'm back, sorry for the long silencem been bz working, i;ve resigned already, so am now studying ACCP, aptech certified computer professional, so far, im well and alive. happy i quit my job, cos its really a crappy job, long hours, hard labour..lol no OT, boring..and etc etc, its so nice being a student again, now i realized, tat being a student is great, u are given more liberty and freedom than being in work, i mus take this chance to learn the most i can , son i can demand demand demand from my employee..lol

Today is a fucking unlucky day for me..i went to this CC, drop my mp3 player on the floor..so happens tat im so lucky there is a drainage hole on the flloor..so it droped into the hole...fucking 380 GONE!!!!! oh btw..im employed now..starting on the 25th as Management trainee for AEON BHD.

Sometimes, when you look back, all great the time we had with ppl who we were once close, but now distant, even when u see them , there is nothing to talk about and there is wierdness, sad isnt it, its even more sad if u knew u were partly responsible for it.

Another Crappy boring day.. i hope soon things will be more intresting when i go KL for a job interview, and hopefully it will be interviews! wish me luck guys...start of a new era! lol

Globalisation, a big buzz word isnt it, we've always been preached to that globalization would bring the world as one, a melting port of the world culture, market liberalisation , making the market more competitive and efficient, bring development to all corners of the earth.Sounds all good and rosy doesn't it? but there's a problem! this perceptions is generaly thought by and preached by the more powerful developed countries which are mostly western , it's no suprise tat this is wat most ppl believe , since they are the same ppl who controls the majority of the media disseminating this school of thought, but lets look at it at the prespective of you and me,the less rich and less developed nations, no doubt it would be wonderful to have a composite culture, but the question is,will our local culture withstand a sudden onslaught of foriegn culture especially western culture? are our culture developed enough to take this kind of bashing? or would it errode our value , tradition and social fabric? would it wreck everything into chaos, the more intresting question is, has the average joe on the street developed the mindset and wisdom to handle this sudden influx of foriegn culture and ideas?, or will they be easily influence by consumerism and the media, look around, i guess you would see the answer, it's generally more ok to simply fuck around now,divorce are becoming more common, i certainly don't think tats our asian culture, those pattern awfully resemble those of western culture.see the picture? i'm not saying western culture are all that bad, they have some great ideas like freedom of speech and democracy,equality and all.Not only should us the average joes think which idea is good or bad, which should we adopt, which we should strongly resist, but also, does the idea fit into our local culture context and value? Another key idea of globalisation is that it liberalise the market thus making it's more competitive, thus making it more effecient and productive, but have we come to it, do we really want our local economy to cave in to a so called global "liberalized" market?If we want, we would need to be competitive and effecient in order to survive in a liberalized global market, we will have to work more, increase the pace of our life, no more would you be able to enjoy a leisure lifestyle, more time working, less quality time with family and friends. Ultimately we would still loose in this global liberalized market, because the developed nations already has a head start, in the end society itself would fail, by then we would already loose our idendity, everything would be in chaotic state,we have lost becuase we played someone else's game follwing someone else's rules, i would not dare to imagine that day.Put it simply, would you work your ass off from 8-11 almost everynight, neglect your family, neglect your health so you could afford that BMW that you would rarely use and that big beautiful house u rarely stay in cos u were too busy digging you own grave, following someone's idea how an ideal ife should be.

I don't know why suddenly i'm writting this, it jus came across my mind, mayb i'm too bored =p
©2005 Nicholas Loh

As i gaze upon the sky, with a glass of chvias coke in my hand,
enlightment came to me, i realized that i am a slave, a slave to myself,
a slave to my own habbits, a slave to my unwilling self to let go,
i myself who is between me and my dream, yet i blame god.
i promise myself , with the help of god, i will no longer be a slave to myself
i shall do everyting in my powers, i shall struggle to my last drop of strenght
to break free, so i might fullfill my destiny, so help me god

me

Another Boring day...im so bored, i feel so dead, untill i watch West wing, i dunno why ,always when i finish watching west wing i feel alive, the politics , the moral conflict, the legal tension,the tactics , democracy in the working, behind the scene legistation and governance, the debate, the social agenda, it sorta excites me...funny, seriously i find it more appealing than porn, u know wat..if president Barlet , the fictional president in west wing is really as good as he is potrayed , i tink he would do hell of a better job thn Mr cowboy Bush! Man...mayb i'm attracted to the power shown in the series, or mayb i love the drama of "making the deal" through all possible "moral" means, or mayb jus the realistic debate!! This show really relfects my perception of democracy, some politicians fighting for what they really believe, some fightign for their self intrest, some fighting for an intrest group (for e.g certain industries). It really shows the beauty of democracy and also the ugly side of it, how it can be abused, how it can be unfair. just like life....

on another matter i downlaoded this great Widget progamme that deric recomended
below is a screen shot of the widgets.




prety cool huh?
get them at http://www.konfabulator.com/downloads/

Click here for some pics i RR and Bentley i took

CNY pics

jus put up a gallery at http://www.flickr.com/photos/aplnick/
had a great cny..will blog bout it sometime.. tired and sleepy now

Quote of the day...
"Grieve not on sadness or the things you can not have, but do the things you desire and be happy, for life is short" - Nicholas Loh

An open prayer

Lord i pray,
i surrender all to you,
Lift me up,
open my eyes and heart,
bring me away from my sorrows,
cleanse away my sin,
give me strength to persist doing the right thing,
give me wisdom so i might understand your will,
give me faith so i'll be forever more in your glory,
set me free , so i might soar high to live your life,
Bless me, so i could fulfill my desires to do great things to glorify you

Today i went to my fren's house for dinner,food was good, met alot of
intresting ppl, what i want to share is wat my fren's dad said, his a
bank manager for maybank, he went to this Christian Business Leader
Convention, Tan Sri Francis Yeo, the CEO of YTL group, one of the
largest listed company with a a combined Market Capitalisation of
almost RM19 billion, gave a speech, he said that it is not easy being
a Christian business man, but it's possible, there is alot of
challange,you first have to seek GOD, he quoted some bibble verse..but
i forgot which one, WOW ! One of the business man i look up to is
actually a christian, and i believe he is not crapping , looking at
his company portfolio , unlike Anandan Krishan, Lim Goh Tong and
Vincent Tan's portfolio , he does not have gambling business or any
other business which is to some standard is socially unacceptable.
Suddenly it jus came to me,if u have desire to make alot of money,
make it big, seek god first, than work on it, he will bless you, it's
not easy, but it is very possible. Your foundation as a christian is
only as strong as your faith.It alawys has been me and my fren's
desire to make it big so we can make the world better, particularly
kch, if god put that desire into us, he will give us the means to
reach it. Kudos to those who has been sucessful but yet has not
forgotten god.

Sunset at genting

View of KL city from genting

Photocopy art - made using my home bubblejet photocopier, mum gonna kill me when she know i've been wasting ink..but hey, im jus being creative

yes, tat's my finger being photocopied, color tweaked up abit usin photoshop

Ambrose Bierce
"Cogito cogito ergo cogito sum (I think that I think, therefore I think that I am.)"

Anthelme Brillat-Savarin
"The discovery of a new dish does more for human happiness than the discovery of a new star."

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JusT the right song to descibe my feelings....

Avril LAvinge - Falling Down

If fear's what makes us decide
Our future journey
Well I'm not along for a ride
Cause I'm still yearning
To try and touch the sun
My fingers burning
Before you're old you are young
Yeah, I'm still learning

I am falling down
Try and stop me
It feels so good to hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It's an uphill human race
And I am falling down

I'm standing out in the street
The earth is moving
I feel it under my feet
And I'm still proving
That I can stand my ground
And my feet aren't there
Haven't washed my hair
To be lost before you are found
Don't mean you're losing

I am falling down
Try and stop me
It feels so good to hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It's an uphill human race
And I am falling down

Some day I'll live in a house
Et cetera, Et cetera, Et cetera
But you know that's not for now
And for now I'm falling down, down, down
Down, down, down
Down, down, down
Yeah-eee-yeah-eee-yeah

I am falling down
Try and stop me
It feels so good to hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It's an uphill human race
And I am falling down
I'm falling down, falling down
Falling, falling, falling
Falling
It feels so good to hit the ground
I am falling, falling down

Dam super tired...went fishing for my 1st time, tot it was boring, but decided to go anyway rather tha stay home and be bored, but turns out to be intresting... specially if u go wif a bunch of crazy ass frens, never a dow moment.After tat came home bath...straight away went for dinner at top spot...food was nice, big portion, reasonable price, we were all full like crap, we literally had to force the latecomer to stuff all the remaining food into his tummy ..lol poor guy, penalty for being late..thank god it wasn;t me. Than went to 99 for some drinks, than Bing again to meet up wif somemore frens...so now i have both alchohol and caffein in me...plus im super tired...confirm tml sick wan...DAM! lol

For the year of 2004...
Year of 2004, an eventful year, full of sadness, full of dilemma yet full of blessings I’ve always ignored. In this year I really been through a lot and learned a lot, I learned what real courage is, it’s bout not running from problems and making decision which you know will have dire consequences (thanks vic). I’ve learned sometime shity situations where no matter how hard you fight you can’t seem to overcome are big test that you just have to get through, for what? I don’t really know, maybe it’s to get me ready for the many great big things I will do in the future. One thing for sure, I come to know of the many caring people who are real friends that have helped through. Thanks.

I’ve screwed up some friendship, but I know somehow god will mend it in the future. I’ve got to know many nice caring people who helped me through the year.

To my ka che, Jasmine, who is always there to give me sensible advice, help and even offer to help me get a job even though when I’m dam lazy and slow in preparing the resume she asked for, thanks, I’m glad to known you, hope you’ll safely deliver and have a healthy beautiful baby, so next time I go KL I get to see my “niece”.

To vic, my cimui, I’m so glad to known you, apparently due to your many “experiences” in life have made you so much wiser, thanks for all the advice, support and help you have given me. You really helped me a lot.

To my jie jie , Joelyn, always willing to listen to all my depressing complains, giving good advice, encouragement and prayers, and the great time in KL, thanks, I’ll be looking forward to seeing you again in KL so we can go yam cha when your free =p. sorry for the late sms and forgetting your birthday. Really glad to have known you.

To my fren Chiq(val), after being through so much in life, you still manage to live on and remain sane, it’s really an inspiration, Respect Chiq =p, thanks for being there for me and the nice time i had in KL. See yea soon.

To my musically talented friend Sara, it’s nice knowing you, thanks for all the encouragement and support, and also the nice time I had in KL, see yea soon.


To Cindy, my long lost high skool fren, your niceness and enthusiasm made me believe this world still got a lot of nice sincere people, thanks for all the encouragement and prayers. Hope to see you soon.

To Pauline, my inspiring friend, your sincerity to do good really inspires me, your dream to use music to help people, make me realize that talents, interest can be used for good as it can be use for personal gains. Great to have met you.

To verl verl the cutie, always can keep cool one this gal, thanks for listening to all my crap.
To stephie, my college hang out bud, thanks for all the hang outs..ahah or else I would be bored to death, and one more thing, thanks for being doing your assignment last minute too, or else I’d feel left out..lol


To Sylvia and Gloria, thanks for all the yam cha session, I’d be bored to death in kch if it wasn’t for you gals, Sylvia, I really respect your always cheerful and optimistic enthuasim, keep it up! Glo, you been through a lot and still standing, respect, and sorry for the screw up..

Hmm you guys must be thinking by now… “you fucking biased bastard only say good bout gals, are you gay? “ , sabar…ahaha now I’m getting to it.

To Deric self proclaimed freak and Heng Tai, who is always ready to help, thanks for all the kick ass great time and help man, fast fast grad and learn a lot, so you can be in-charge of the automotive and mechanical division of our to be conglomerate!

To Andrew , the always got kang tau and steady heng tai, thanks for all the great time and help, kawan faster finish yer degree, remember u promise to handle the “darker” side of the bizness..ahaha

To Ting Hung, our beloved , Ta Ker, thanks for all the great time and help.We all waiting for you to finish your degree so we can also dominate the property and construction industry.

To Alvin my “ true also… investment manager”, make sure next year we dun loose any money man ( I mean it!), to be honest, I think your nicer and less freakier compared to last time, big-up man!

To Ah Ju my “aiya regret again la….” fren, respect for having the courage to take the decision to not continue to degree for a while to be the highest earner among us(for now), Brother control your D***, lol mai later come tell me u want to be vegetarian again! Lol
To Sean the fun and funny friend, congrats man, honestly I think u change a lot for the better, no more changing degree programs and actually passing all the subjects! Ahah keep it up man!

To EJ, the doc, ahahaa, thanks for the sarcastic but sensible advice, respect for still being still holiest among us..lol respect for having the crazyness to take a medic degree so we all will still have doctors next time.

And for the other friends I missed to mention sorry man, I’m getting old , memory not that good.

Oh yea my parents, its not like their gonna read this, but it’s only proper to mention, thanks for putting up with all my shit and blindly investing in me =p

Good luck for the year of 2005; I feel it’s gonna be a great year for all of us!