Finding my self
over and over
in the cloud of confusion
trying to find who i am
but the answer is always
the same
it's me
it's always the me i am
after all it's not bout finding
who i am
but its always rediscovering again
and again who i was
what i am
what i alawys been
it's always bout goin bck to my own road
no matter who or what lead me astray
i'd find my way back to me

so to the some of u...
who might mean well (thanks) or mean ill (go screw yerself)
telling me what i should be
who i should become
shut the fuck up!
i dun give a dam!
what u say or wat u tink
you're not me
you've never been me
you don't know who i am
with the grace of god
i shall be my ultimate judge
to what i am
to who i will be

for those who has always been there
accepting me for being me
being there for me no matter in what times
your truly great friends that i cherish

My advice,
just be you
listen to your inner self
follow your inner zeal
be who you are
your beautiful =)
even if your wrong,
you'll die being yourself
not someone else!

©2004 Nicholas Loh

Today i learned of a hero i respect, one younger than i am, a 13 year old who died at 13, but did many wonders , much more than most of us can.He inspired millions with his poetry ,with the message of peace and love. He had greatness alot of us lack , to geniunely care for others even when his on life is on the line.Here are some of his inspiring work:

Every journey begins
With but a small step.
And every day is a chance
For a new, small step
In the right direction.
Just follow your Heartsong.

by Mattie Stepanek

and he wrote when he was just 11, I want people to know that in every life there are storms. But we must remember to play after every storm and to celebrate the gift of life as we have it, or else life becomes a task, rather than a gift. We must always listen to the song in our heart, and share that song with others.

to know more
read
http://myhero.com/myhero/hero.asp?hero=mattieStepanek
http://www.oprah.com/spiritself/insp/psp/ss_insp_psp_mattie.jhtml

my faith is at it's edge,
does it pay to be the good guy? does it pay to uphold moral values?
does it pay to do the right thing and not indulgede in temptations?
it doesnt seem to pay doin the right thing....tings jus go wrong
my faith is at play, so help me god

Another Wasted day..Doing wasted stuff
las nite i drank like mad again and of cos..spend like mad!
should have jus followed my instinct and went home.
i'd save money, not torment my liver, not waking up feeling like shit
and not the mention the guilt..wtf man

from http://yro.slashdot.org/article.pl?sid=04/10/05/1823254&tid=153

"The Malaysian blogosphere is currently in uproar as one of their most famous bloggers, a political observer named Jeff Ooi, has been threatened with action under the country's draconian ISA (Internal Security Act) law which allows a person to be detained without trial if he is thought to threaten "national security". The whole problem started with a comment made by a reader of the blog. The comment is alleged to have been insulting of Islam. A national newspaper (whose editor has frequently been a target of Ooi's blog) took up the story and accused the blogger of insulting Islam, while Ooi in his defence states he warned (and later deleted) the offending commenter when he was alerted to it. Malaysian bloggers meanwhile are outraged that a blogger should be held responsible for comments made by readers. In the case of Ooi's blog, which attracts thousands of hits per day, it is logistically impossible for Ooi to read and moderate every comment made. The whole saga can be followed in Jeff Ooi's Screenshots blog."


check out www.jeffooi.com for the whole detail!!

why is there a deep urge for me to escape!? to run away?
am i a coward? or am it to run away and rediscover myself?
to be the best of who i am?

Bored boring very bored, not tat i dun have work to do, i got tons of assign to do, jus tat their not exciting at all..its all so so so so boring!