The story of a girl

they say, love is a funny thing, the more you want it
the more it will shy from you.
the more u less expect of it
the more it comes to you
mayb thats why i should just give up on love
and let cupid do his work
not than im a fan of his

it's not that i came to this with just a bang on my head
it came hard,
it came after i really bruised my heart
only than did i learn this universal wisdom
which only hold true for a few things
love is one of them

it all started when i fell for someone i shouldn't...
no, its not some married hot babe or someone's else gf
it's just happens
i accidentally fallen to one of my closest fren

i know some of you,
your eyes are rolling at me
Doh' " it's yer close fren, it will be ezier to get close to her, u'll have more chance"
Well guess wat wise guy
it aint that simple
there's alot of stake involved
more than your dignity, if you had any

you see there's that very very precious and intimate thing involved
the kinda thing that cures all at times,
makes you coming back for more
it's a kinda thing u smile at every morning once u had it.
it makes you really satisfied and happy
its' a desire in all of us to have it.
No its not sex.
if i want sex
i can just get it from some hooker
or some slut
it's harder to get than sex
its' even harder to get than money
its that friendship u build over the years and sacrificed so much for

Now it's either i hit on her
i succeed
OR
i fail and loose that precious thing

than i could just ignore that feeling
and shove it down somewhere like a man

i took the second choice
of shoving it down someway
after all i am a man rite?
it worked all rite
well....
only for a bout 6 months
my feelings begin to riot
and rack chaos
and the funny thing with life is...
it loves to hit you hard at the wrong time
just somewhere before my exam

the days goes by
it seems a change of regime is going to happen
my heart will rule over my mind
as days goes by
i am weaker and weaker

at last the wall has fallen
i'd did wat i than dare not do
i confessed to her
every bit of my feelings

i will always REMEMBER the looks on her face
...
it was like...emm emmm
er..i tink it was
oh..i forgoten, oops

things were never the same again
what i feared most happened
i gain nothing
but had soemthing to loose
that friendship
it was never the same again
they was always a big transparent wall between us
we never talk like we did before
even though we might be sitting next to each other
it felt they was this big pacific ocean between us
how i wish than panado could cure heart ache too
and oh...
it seems the "friendship can cure all" i said earlier was bullshit



that was the end of it
i'd move on
went to KL to work
as time passed by
i manage to slowly forget bout it
years pass by
i never talk to her
at least not directly
some time it's jus hi-bye kinda conversation through msn or icq
soemtime i wonders how is she doing
and what she is doing
but it never got answered

after a few years of work
everything seems to be doing fine
i enjoyed my work
im getting alot out of it
both in personal satisfaction and financially
but i felt kinda tired
so its time i took an overdue vacation
to kinda relax and relfect and see what i should be doing next in my life
i decided to go alone!!!
To Rome!! Yahoooo!!!
the great ancient city
than i'll drop by the vatican

Italy(which rome is in) is really great place to visit
authentic italian food
home of lambo and ferrari
pweetie italian babes
Nice place to have a cup of espresso
and check out the local babes.
Than i saw this girl who looked liked her
and in blue, her favourite colour
made me wonder what she is doing now...

the vacation wasn't all that fine..
i'm never good wif directions
i don't speak italian
so only way for me to get around is with the map
and English to italian dictionary
.....
and im bad at reading maps
one day i was really lost,
turning the map up and down
as i was walking
than suddenly i bump into someting
or someone.
i put down the map and apologized to wat ever i hit
Oh my God!!
it was her!!!!
the girl i saw in blue was her!!!

than we started the normal hi, how yea doing convesation
than i don't know why
i asked her....
"so yer here wif yer bf,hubbie or someting"
i guees the feeling was still there...shit!!! there it goes again!!! crap!!!
well she said.. "oh, no i'm alone"
than we had some coffee and did some catching up
than....
the magic of rome goes to work
some say rome it is a romantic city
well it certainly was...for me and her =P
and it was happily ever after

*This story was based on a true story ...in my DREAMS!!! LOL

p/s : If u know any director..ask him if he wanna made a movie of my story and make me filthy rich!!

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