Thought of the day...
Next time when im getting married, i'll have a pro shooting crew around, lol and a director
so i can make a short movie bout my marriage...lol instead of those boring videos u get..lol
©Nicholas Loh

Yea Holiday is here!!! im a free man!! WOhoo at least for a month!!
so wat should i do for my hols any suggestions?

someting funny...
*taken from sweetie pweetie shawwon's page kookiemonsta.blogspot.com

How you know if yer a frenster addict

10. 80% of those in your friendster list are strangers - all from you "Hi can i add you" messages.

9. Walking around in Tun Jugah (its some mall in Kuching), you shout at someone, "Hey cutie!..you are Ah Ling right? Eh we're 5th degree friends in friendster leh! But in your photo you so thin but why you so fat?"

8. When Mum calls you for dinner, you
reply, "Wait mummy ...my friends still 470...have to find another 30 to reach 500"

7. In a month you change your mouse three times and your mousepads five times.

6. At the school cafeteria ... you ask the lunch lady, "Aunty you ada friendster? Boleh add saya?"

5. You dont need to think of what to write for your friends' testimonials - You already have templates, you just pick your choice, copy and paste.

4. Your friendster accounts are : ahbengONEFull, ahbengTWOFull, ahbengTHREEFull, ahbengFOURFull .. ETC.

3. 70% of your testimonials include the phrase, "I've never met him, he messaged me and asked me to add."

2. In your friends' list of 400, you have 20 Coolguy, 16 Marks, 13 davids, 17 Marys... 1 Inti College and none of your siblings.

1. You spend so much time in front of the monitor that when you look at the friendster logo...there's actually the word 'beta'.

wat i learn in life... {episode 2}

im very worried i'd fail
to be honest its a very las minute study
plus wif all other "problems" really hitting at the "right"
time i feel so fucked.
wat if i fail i waste money waste and another term?
how would i justify tat?

but than all these events make me realize someting very important
a big problem with in me
my habbits, my attitude
my lifestyle!
i really need change if i...
ever wan to achive my dreams!
do me a favour...
if i ever forget remind me of the flaw in me!
so i might stand to correct them!
i know u will, u guys like me rite? lol
im yer buddy!! lol

Just when your down...

Matthew 6:26, Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or
store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you
not much more valuable than they? (NIV)

Zephaniah 3:17, The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He
will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will
rejoice over you with singing." (NIV)

John 10:32, But Jesus said to them, "I have shown you many great
miracles from the Father. (NIV)

Matthew 6:32-34, People who don't know God and the way he works fuss
over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your
life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about
missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't
get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help
you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (The
Message)

1 Corinthians 8:6, Yet for us there is but one God, the Father, from
whom all things came and for whom we live; and there is but one Lord,
Jesus Christ, through whom all things came and through whom we live.
(NIV)

wat i learn in life... (episode 1)

Life works in a funny way
only when u see no way out..when ur face wif dead ends
or its jus getting hopeless
than bam!!..comes into your mind..how come i din see tat!?
how come i din tink of tat!?
it might be a new prespective,
it might be new way of doing stuff u never thought of b4,
it might be yer outlook towards other ppl or situation u never saw b4
or u might realize someting u never knew before,
be it be someting bout u, or someoneelse

so when when sometime when u feel yer at the end of no way
smile =) ,cos it might just force u to greater heights, enlightment and beyond

©2004 Copyright Reserved Nicholas Loh

The story of a girl

they say, love is a funny thing, the more you want it
the more it will shy from you.
the more u less expect of it
the more it comes to you
mayb thats why i should just give up on love
and let cupid do his work
not than im a fan of his

it's not that i came to this with just a bang on my head
it came hard,
it came after i really bruised my heart
only than did i learn this universal wisdom
which only hold true for a few things
love is one of them

it all started when i fell for someone i shouldn't...
no, its not some married hot babe or someone's else gf
it's just happens
i accidentally fallen to one of my closest fren

i know some of you,
your eyes are rolling at me
Doh' " it's yer close fren, it will be ezier to get close to her, u'll have more chance"
Well guess wat wise guy
it aint that simple
there's alot of stake involved
more than your dignity, if you had any

you see there's that very very precious and intimate thing involved
the kinda thing that cures all at times,
makes you coming back for more
it's a kinda thing u smile at every morning once u had it.
it makes you really satisfied and happy
its' a desire in all of us to have it.
No its not sex.
if i want sex
i can just get it from some hooker
or some slut
it's harder to get than sex
its' even harder to get than money
its that friendship u build over the years and sacrificed so much for

Now it's either i hit on her
i succeed
OR
i fail and loose that precious thing

than i could just ignore that feeling
and shove it down somewhere like a man

i took the second choice
of shoving it down someway
after all i am a man rite?
it worked all rite
well....
only for a bout 6 months
my feelings begin to riot
and rack chaos
and the funny thing with life is...
it loves to hit you hard at the wrong time
just somewhere before my exam

the days goes by
it seems a change of regime is going to happen
my heart will rule over my mind
as days goes by
i am weaker and weaker

at last the wall has fallen
i'd did wat i than dare not do
i confessed to her
every bit of my feelings

i will always REMEMBER the looks on her face
...
it was like...emm emmm
er..i tink it was
oh..i forgoten, oops

things were never the same again
what i feared most happened
i gain nothing
but had soemthing to loose
that friendship
it was never the same again
they was always a big transparent wall between us
we never talk like we did before
even though we might be sitting next to each other
it felt they was this big pacific ocean between us
how i wish than panado could cure heart ache too
and oh...
it seems the "friendship can cure all" i said earlier was bullshit



that was the end of it
i'd move on
went to KL to work
as time passed by
i manage to slowly forget bout it
years pass by
i never talk to her
at least not directly
some time it's jus hi-bye kinda conversation through msn or icq
soemtime i wonders how is she doing
and what she is doing
but it never got answered

after a few years of work
everything seems to be doing fine
i enjoyed my work
im getting alot out of it
both in personal satisfaction and financially
but i felt kinda tired
so its time i took an overdue vacation
to kinda relax and relfect and see what i should be doing next in my life
i decided to go alone!!!
To Rome!! Yahoooo!!!
the great ancient city
than i'll drop by the vatican

Italy(which rome is in) is really great place to visit
authentic italian food
home of lambo and ferrari
pweetie italian babes
Nice place to have a cup of espresso
and check out the local babes.
Than i saw this girl who looked liked her
and in blue, her favourite colour
made me wonder what she is doing now...

the vacation wasn't all that fine..
i'm never good wif directions
i don't speak italian
so only way for me to get around is with the map
and English to italian dictionary
.....
and im bad at reading maps
one day i was really lost,
turning the map up and down
as i was walking
than suddenly i bump into someting
or someone.
i put down the map and apologized to wat ever i hit
Oh my God!!
it was her!!!!
the girl i saw in blue was her!!!

than we started the normal hi, how yea doing convesation
than i don't know why
i asked her....
"so yer here wif yer bf,hubbie or someting"
i guees the feeling was still there...shit!!! there it goes again!!! crap!!!
well she said.. "oh, no i'm alone"
than we had some coffee and did some catching up
than....
the magic of rome goes to work
some say rome it is a romantic city
well it certainly was...for me and her =P
and it was happily ever after

*This story was based on a true story ...in my DREAMS!!! LOL

p/s : If u know any director..ask him if he wanna made a movie of my story and make me filthy rich!!

©2004 copyright reserved Nicholas Loh

my personality ; sounds dam chun(exact)
taken from
http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html

The Inspirer

As an ENFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system.

ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it.

ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. An ENFP needs to feel that they are living their lives as their true Self, walking in step with what they believe is right. They see meaning in everything, and are on a continuous quest to adapt their lives and values to achieve inner peace. They're constantly aware and somewhat fearful of losing touch with themselves. Since emotional excitement is usually an important part of the ENFP's life, and because they are focused on keeping "centered", the ENFP is usually an intense individual, with highly evolved values.

An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extraverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving.

Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships. ENFPs almost always have a strong need to be liked. Sometimes, especially at a younger age, an ENFP will tend to be "gushy" and insincere, and generally "overdo" in an effort to win acceptance. However, once an ENFP has learned to balance their need to be true to themselves with their need for acceptance, they excel at bringing out the best in others, and are typically well-liked. They have an exceptional ability to intuitively understand a person after a very short period of time, and use their intuition and flexibility to relate to others on their own level.

Because ENFPs live in the world of exciting possibilities, the details of everyday life are seen as trivial drudgery. They place no importance on detailed, maintenance-type tasks, and will frequently remain oblivous to these types of concerns. When they do have to perform these tasks, they do not enjoy themselves. This is a challenging area of life for most ENFPs, and can be frustrating for ENFP's family members.

An ENFP who has "gone wrong" may be quite manipulative - and very good it. The gift of gab which they are blessed with makes it naturally easy for them to get what they want. Most ENFPs will not abuse their abilities, because that would not jive with their value systems.

ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They have an amazing ability to intuitively perceive the truth about a person or situation, but when they apply judgment to their perception, they may jump to the wrong conclusions.

ENFPs who have not learned to follow through may have a difficult time remaining happy in marital relationships. Always seeing the possibilities of what could be, they may become bored with what actually is. The strong sense of values will keep many ENFPs dedicated to their relationships. However, ENFPs like a little excitement in their lives, and are best matched with individuals who are comfortable with change and new experiences.

Having an ENFP parent can be a fun-filled experience, but may be stressful at times for children with strong Sensing or Judging tendancies. Such children may see the ENFP parent as inconsistent and difficult to understand, as the children are pulled along in the whirlwind life of the ENFP. Sometimes the ENFP will want to be their child's best friend, and at other times they will play the parental authoritarian. But ENFPs are always consistent in their value systems, which they will impress on their children above all else, along with a basic joy of living.

ENFPs are basically happy people. They may become unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. Consequently, ENFPs work best in situations where they have a lot of flexibility, and where they can work with people and ideas. Many go into business for themselves. They have the ability to be quite productive with little supervision, as long as they are excited about what they're doing.

Because they are so alert and sensitive, constantly scanning their environments, ENFPs often suffer from muscle tension. They have a strong need to be independent, and resist being controlled or labelled. They need to maintain control over themselves, but they do not believe in controlling others. Their dislike of dependence and suppression extends to others as well as to themselves.

ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through.

Jungian functional preference ordering for ENFP:

Dominant: Extraverted Intuition
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Sensing

someting i wrote

sorrow is the note i hear tonight
each comin day is harder to fight
denying my heart to feel
in hope to save a precious gift
a friendship


i want to care
but i couldn't
i want to miss
but i couldn't

what is there to live
to live without dreams
to live without hope

i'm out of hope
i'm out of strenght
my soul is tired
my heart is weary


as i gaze upon above
lookin for the answer
why had i fallen for the one i shouldnt
am i to suffer in silence each day
or am to loose one of the greatest gift

as i come to this crossroad
so God help me
no mattter which way i take
i know they'll be hurting
give me strength