i'm getting pissed man, year and over year for the past decade, the haze has came bck, and the ting tat pisses me off the most is, its not a natural phenomena, this one we cant blame mother nature for it, Its human doing, and to add insult to injury, its not even done by malaysians, were suffering due to the direct consequences of the irresponsibilities of our neighbour country, why cant they do anyting bout it, its happens year and year and year again!! Rot in hell who ever are those tat started the fire as a cheap mean of clearing forest. Your unleashing a mild-weapon of mass destruction, malaysians are paying the price with our health and life, i hope the gov would do someting bout it, in fact the international community should do someting about it, indonesia has over and over again failed to curb the problem that their neighbours have to pay the price , mayb some kinda trade embargo or boycott is in order, some might say such measures are too far fetch, but look at it this way, their irresponsible actions has affected the health of many malaysians, they might not be many instant death, but long term effects suchs as lung cancer and other respritory illness can cause death, not to mention economics loss, its like their unleashing some form of low tech biological weapon, screw them, i'm pissed, i'm depressed with the haze, screw the irresponsible indons, so much for appreciation of the millions we have send in aid! and the hunderead thousand of job oppurtunity we have provided!

Well i was proven wrong , this change is exciting, my hostel is jus near KLsentral, so it's very convinient,plus i got a room all to myself!!! cos so far i have no room mate, lets hope it stays this way untill i fnish my course! my housemate are quite nice ppl , they cook every night, and we share the cost of the raw material, suprisingly most of them are catholic, there it was a week ago, moving into a hostel , not knowhing how it will be, how my housemate will be like, wat are the odds man tat mos of them are Catholic!? ahhaa god really has answered my prayers, on another matter, when i was walking around during lunch look for a new place to eat, i saw quite a few old ppl along the way sleeping on the streets, wtf man, With all the AP and NEP issue going aroud, they still are bigger issue here tat never really gets highlited, only once in a while when a tv station turns to highlight an unlucky few, but never have i heard any statistic of proverty or income distribution, wat is the use if the Bumi achieve 30% control of market equity, but that wealth is distributed to a select few? why bother making millionaire, billionaires? wat i tink is the gov should focus on wealth distribution, regardless of race or religion, in tat way , since the Bumi are the majority of the population, naturaly they will hold a substantial stake in the equity market, and i also tink measuring an economic progress of a community by its equity holding are not accurate, i tink a more accurate way would be through contribution to GDP. Thats all for now folk..hungry..goin for lunch

This time for Real , i'm gonna move to the hostel, later i'm gonna go take a look at it, kinda nervous , not knowing wat to expect, and i haven't anyting but not so good tings bout it.not gonna be the best week end i reckon, i have to start packing when i get home later..sigh, sometime change is exciting but not this one... lets hope i'm proven wrong.

The Return

It has been ages since i blog, use to be i din have time, thn it's because i dun have the mood, don't complain, Look up on top of the page and Read out loud wat the tittle of my blog says

Today's topic is dreams..ah yes dreams..

Do you have a dream? i have , i dream about it everyday, sometime with dissapointment , sometime with hope, sometime with emotions , sometime with excitment. I dream not of an event or an achievemtns, but i dream of a journey, a journey of fullfilment, a journey till my last breathe.In my dreams, i see the person i dream to be, the decision i will make,the emotions i will feel,the people around me , the character that i am , the things i will do,my believes and even the challanges i will face, As i gaze upon the city nightline, it strucks me that i struggle to find myself in this bustling city, where for many pride and materialism is a relieve from cruel reality, yet it is a city so diverse with many inspiring people, the action seems so near yet so far, I vow to live my dreams day by day, but i know that all is in the hand of god.Many of you who are close to me will partially know what i mean, what my dreams are, and some of our dreams cross and weave togather. I call upon you my frens,no matter how far apart, live you dream day by day, so we might weave our dreams togather into a grand dream we all share.

©2005 Nicholas Loh , Copyrights Reserved, Do not copy or redistribute , private content

Hello guys i'm back, sorry for the long silencem been bz working, i;ve resigned already, so am now studying ACCP, aptech certified computer professional, so far, im well and alive. happy i quit my job, cos its really a crappy job, long hours, hard labour..lol no OT, boring..and etc etc, its so nice being a student again, now i realized, tat being a student is great, u are given more liberty and freedom than being in work, i mus take this chance to learn the most i can , son i can demand demand demand from my employee..lol

Today is a fucking unlucky day for me..i went to this CC, drop my mp3 player on the floor..so happens tat im so lucky there is a drainage hole on the flloor..so it droped into the hole...fucking 380 GONE!!!!! oh btw..im employed now..starting on the 25th as Management trainee for AEON BHD.

Sometimes, when you look back, all great the time we had with ppl who we were once close, but now distant, even when u see them , there is nothing to talk about and there is wierdness, sad isnt it, its even more sad if u knew u were partly responsible for it.

Another Crappy boring day.. i hope soon things will be more intresting when i go KL for a job interview, and hopefully it will be interviews! wish me luck guys...start of a new era! lol

Globalisation, a big buzz word isnt it, we've always been preached to that globalization would bring the world as one, a melting port of the world culture, market liberalisation , making the market more competitive and efficient, bring development to all corners of the earth.Sounds all good and rosy doesn't it? but there's a problem! this perceptions is generaly thought by and preached by the more powerful developed countries which are mostly western , it's no suprise tat this is wat most ppl believe , since they are the same ppl who controls the majority of the media disseminating this school of thought, but lets look at it at the prespective of you and me,the less rich and less developed nations, no doubt it would be wonderful to have a composite culture, but the question is,will our local culture withstand a sudden onslaught of foriegn culture especially western culture? are our culture developed enough to take this kind of bashing? or would it errode our value , tradition and social fabric? would it wreck everything into chaos, the more intresting question is, has the average joe on the street developed the mindset and wisdom to handle this sudden influx of foriegn culture and ideas?, or will they be easily influence by consumerism and the media, look around, i guess you would see the answer, it's generally more ok to simply fuck around now,divorce are becoming more common, i certainly don't think tats our asian culture, those pattern awfully resemble those of western culture.see the picture? i'm not saying western culture are all that bad, they have some great ideas like freedom of speech and democracy,equality and all.Not only should us the average joes think which idea is good or bad, which should we adopt, which we should strongly resist, but also, does the idea fit into our local culture context and value? Another key idea of globalisation is that it liberalise the market thus making it's more competitive, thus making it more effecient and productive, but have we come to it, do we really want our local economy to cave in to a so called global "liberalized" market?If we want, we would need to be competitive and effecient in order to survive in a liberalized global market, we will have to work more, increase the pace of our life, no more would you be able to enjoy a leisure lifestyle, more time working, less quality time with family and friends. Ultimately we would still loose in this global liberalized market, because the developed nations already has a head start, in the end society itself would fail, by then we would already loose our idendity, everything would be in chaotic state,we have lost becuase we played someone else's game follwing someone else's rules, i would not dare to imagine that day.Put it simply, would you work your ass off from 8-11 almost everynight, neglect your family, neglect your health so you could afford that BMW that you would rarely use and that big beautiful house u rarely stay in cos u were too busy digging you own grave, following someone's idea how an ideal ife should be.

I don't know why suddenly i'm writting this, it jus came across my mind, mayb i'm too bored =p
©2005 Nicholas Loh

As i gaze upon the sky, with a glass of chvias coke in my hand,
enlightment came to me, i realized that i am a slave, a slave to myself,
a slave to my own habbits, a slave to my unwilling self to let go,
i myself who is between me and my dream, yet i blame god.
i promise myself , with the help of god, i will no longer be a slave to myself
i shall do everyting in my powers, i shall struggle to my last drop of strenght
to break free, so i might fullfill my destiny, so help me god

me

Another Boring day...im so bored, i feel so dead, untill i watch West wing, i dunno why ,always when i finish watching west wing i feel alive, the politics , the moral conflict, the legal tension,the tactics , democracy in the working, behind the scene legistation and governance, the debate, the social agenda, it sorta excites me...funny, seriously i find it more appealing than porn, u know wat..if president Barlet , the fictional president in west wing is really as good as he is potrayed , i tink he would do hell of a better job thn Mr cowboy Bush! Man...mayb i'm attracted to the power shown in the series, or mayb i love the drama of "making the deal" through all possible "moral" means, or mayb jus the realistic debate!! This show really relfects my perception of democracy, some politicians fighting for what they really believe, some fightign for their self intrest, some fighting for an intrest group (for e.g certain industries). It really shows the beauty of democracy and also the ugly side of it, how it can be abused, how it can be unfair. just like life....

on another matter i downlaoded this great Widget progamme that deric recomended
below is a screen shot of the widgets.




prety cool huh?
get them at http://www.konfabulator.com/downloads/

Click here for some pics i RR and Bentley i took

CNY pics

jus put up a gallery at http://www.flickr.com/photos/aplnick/
had a great cny..will blog bout it sometime.. tired and sleepy now

Quote of the day...
"Grieve not on sadness or the things you can not have, but do the things you desire and be happy, for life is short" - Nicholas Loh

An open prayer

Lord i pray,
i surrender all to you,
Lift me up,
open my eyes and heart,
bring me away from my sorrows,
cleanse away my sin,
give me strength to persist doing the right thing,
give me wisdom so i might understand your will,
give me faith so i'll be forever more in your glory,
set me free , so i might soar high to live your life,
Bless me, so i could fulfill my desires to do great things to glorify you

Today i went to my fren's house for dinner,food was good, met alot of
intresting ppl, what i want to share is wat my fren's dad said, his a
bank manager for maybank, he went to this Christian Business Leader
Convention, Tan Sri Francis Yeo, the CEO of YTL group, one of the
largest listed company with a a combined Market Capitalisation of
almost RM19 billion, gave a speech, he said that it is not easy being
a Christian business man, but it's possible, there is alot of
challange,you first have to seek GOD, he quoted some bibble verse..but
i forgot which one, WOW ! One of the business man i look up to is
actually a christian, and i believe he is not crapping , looking at
his company portfolio , unlike Anandan Krishan, Lim Goh Tong and
Vincent Tan's portfolio , he does not have gambling business or any
other business which is to some standard is socially unacceptable.
Suddenly it jus came to me,if u have desire to make alot of money,
make it big, seek god first, than work on it, he will bless you, it's
not easy, but it is very possible. Your foundation as a christian is
only as strong as your faith.It alawys has been me and my fren's
desire to make it big so we can make the world better, particularly
kch, if god put that desire into us, he will give us the means to
reach it. Kudos to those who has been sucessful but yet has not
forgotten god.

Sunset at genting