Sometimes, when you look back, all great the time we had with ppl who we were once close, but now distant, even when u see them , there is nothing to talk about and there is wierdness, sad isnt it, its even more sad if u knew u were partly responsible for it.

Another Crappy boring day.. i hope soon things will be more intresting when i go KL for a job interview, and hopefully it will be interviews! wish me luck guys...start of a new era! lol

Globalisation, a big buzz word isnt it, we've always been preached to that globalization would bring the world as one, a melting port of the world culture, market liberalisation , making the market more competitive and efficient, bring development to all corners of the earth.Sounds all good and rosy doesn't it? but there's a problem! this perceptions is generaly thought by and preached by the more powerful developed countries which are mostly western , it's no suprise tat this is wat most ppl believe , since they are the same ppl who controls the majority of the media disseminating this school of thought, but lets look at it at the prespective of you and me,the less rich and less developed nations, no doubt it would be wonderful to have a composite culture, but the question is,will our local culture withstand a sudden onslaught of foriegn culture especially western culture? are our culture developed enough to take this kind of bashing? or would it errode our value , tradition and social fabric? would it wreck everything into chaos, the more intresting question is, has the average joe on the street developed the mindset and wisdom to handle this sudden influx of foriegn culture and ideas?, or will they be easily influence by consumerism and the media, look around, i guess you would see the answer, it's generally more ok to simply fuck around now,divorce are becoming more common, i certainly don't think tats our asian culture, those pattern awfully resemble those of western culture.see the picture? i'm not saying western culture are all that bad, they have some great ideas like freedom of speech and democracy,equality and all.Not only should us the average joes think which idea is good or bad, which should we adopt, which we should strongly resist, but also, does the idea fit into our local culture context and value? Another key idea of globalisation is that it liberalise the market thus making it's more competitive, thus making it more effecient and productive, but have we come to it, do we really want our local economy to cave in to a so called global "liberalized" market?If we want, we would need to be competitive and effecient in order to survive in a liberalized global market, we will have to work more, increase the pace of our life, no more would you be able to enjoy a leisure lifestyle, more time working, less quality time with family and friends. Ultimately we would still loose in this global liberalized market, because the developed nations already has a head start, in the end society itself would fail, by then we would already loose our idendity, everything would be in chaotic state,we have lost becuase we played someone else's game follwing someone else's rules, i would not dare to imagine that day.Put it simply, would you work your ass off from 8-11 almost everynight, neglect your family, neglect your health so you could afford that BMW that you would rarely use and that big beautiful house u rarely stay in cos u were too busy digging you own grave, following someone's idea how an ideal ife should be.

I don't know why suddenly i'm writting this, it jus came across my mind, mayb i'm too bored =p
©2005 Nicholas Loh

As i gaze upon the sky, with a glass of chvias coke in my hand,
enlightment came to me, i realized that i am a slave, a slave to myself,
a slave to my own habbits, a slave to my unwilling self to let go,
i myself who is between me and my dream, yet i blame god.
i promise myself , with the help of god, i will no longer be a slave to myself
i shall do everyting in my powers, i shall struggle to my last drop of strenght
to break free, so i might fullfill my destiny, so help me god

me

Another Boring day...im so bored, i feel so dead, untill i watch West wing, i dunno why ,always when i finish watching west wing i feel alive, the politics , the moral conflict, the legal tension,the tactics , democracy in the working, behind the scene legistation and governance, the debate, the social agenda, it sorta excites me...funny, seriously i find it more appealing than porn, u know wat..if president Barlet , the fictional president in west wing is really as good as he is potrayed , i tink he would do hell of a better job thn Mr cowboy Bush! Man...mayb i'm attracted to the power shown in the series, or mayb i love the drama of "making the deal" through all possible "moral" means, or mayb jus the realistic debate!! This show really relfects my perception of democracy, some politicians fighting for what they really believe, some fightign for their self intrest, some fighting for an intrest group (for e.g certain industries). It really shows the beauty of democracy and also the ugly side of it, how it can be abused, how it can be unfair. just like life....

on another matter i downlaoded this great Widget progamme that deric recomended
below is a screen shot of the widgets.




prety cool huh?
get them at http://www.konfabulator.com/downloads/

Click here for some pics i RR and Bentley i took